~Off to Another Stage ~

I'm feeling down today..

Suddenly in just a few days I won't be living with my family for the next 9 months. I mean I've been living with them for the last 5 months and God knows how much I love them, loathe them, get annoyed by them but at the end of the night when everything is over I'll b snuggling beside them in their bed watching tv.

This is me just going off to work.

I wonder how I'll be when I'm off to another stage in life. I can't be snuggling with them when I go home as I have my husband to tend to. I just hope that my babah would approve me of a good husband and all of us could snuggle at the end of the day and do the routine even if I'm somebody's wife.

What a dream.. Lets just pray very hard for my babah to let go of me first then we'll pray bout the snuggling part k..
Hmmmmm.. I wonder if my husband would like the snuggling part with them as well.. Or is it just too weird.. hehe..

~ BelateD WisH..~

As I've said before.. My mummy will only celebrate Mother's Day on my Birthday..

But I still called her on the day just to wish a fake wish..

And she thanked me with a fake thanks..

Anyway.. I messaged all my other mothers out there...

" Aunty.. Happy Mother's Day!! Hope you're celebrated like a Queen today. As today is the day for you to demand.. Hehe.. Muahsss.. Thanks for being my mummy too. I love you.."

All of my dearest mummy replied wishing thanx and that they love me too..

But this is my favourite reply which is from Ame's mum.. I laughed reading her message..

" Thanks for remembering me! I so appreciate and glad you are my daughter.
( here comes the funny part...) Of course I'll demand but the thing that I want is out of their budget... heehee... Luv u forever! Ur mummy"

I instantly called Ame telling her bout the messaged. How her mum's reply is so brutally honest and Ame scolded her mum for saying so.. Hahaha..

I so miss Aunty as she is so blunt with you.. I once was force fed health food because she said I was fat and how I dress up so selekeh. Yupppp.. She said that...

Anyway.. Hope you guys and gals out there treats your mother like a Queen no matter what..

For those who can't... Whether because they are far or not with us anymore.. Remember them in our heart and read Al- Fatihah..

~ The MeSSaGe ~

I was about to go to sleep ( which was around 3:40 am) when I suddenly got a message..

I wonder who would message me at this time.. It was Nabil.... I really freak out since he juz had an eye operation. When I view it.. This is what he wrote...

Weh.. Apa maksud kumbaya?

I was laughing like mad.. What the hellll??!!!! I called him straight away. We were laughing like mad.. He was so bored that suddenly he thought of the word kumbaya.. Nabil.. Nabil.. You can ask the darnest of questions...

I still remember the Addam's Family Movie where they sang Kumbaya to Wednesday.. And her reaction was so funny.. Dia kan heartless.. Hehehe..

Anyway my dearest Nabil.. I Google and Kumbaya is from the Gullah creole language. Apparently a corruption of the English phrase "come by here" in a spiritual song.
Thank god for Google.. hehehe...

I wonder what his next question will be..

~ Ethics Lesson No. 2.. ~

Spit your crap where it is suitable!!!

Not on the restaurant's floor you ****************!!

Urggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Where is your manner dude??!!

I seriously felt like going to the you and giving you a piece of my mind..

But being sane.. I don't think its worth it..

Would if he spits on my face face instead..

Yucckkkkkkkkksssssssss...

~ My Jewelry... ~

A woman wears her tears like jewelry~ Author Unknown

~ Keoi.... ~

He just told me that he's planning to get married next year...

Without hesitation I cried my heart out.

He thought I was being dramatic and was laughing thinking that I was acting.

Suddenly he heard my muffled voice..

" Nanti ko kahwin boleh ke jumpa lagi? Boleh ke kita gayut?? Nanti dia marah.. Huwaaaaa.. Keoi.. make sure dia suka aku k.. Nak kawan ngan ko lagi.. Huwaaaaaaaa.... Paksa gak k dia suka aku so that aku leh lepak ngan korang. "

And then I cried again.. Non stop..

We've been friends for 10 years and I can't loose my bestfriend. He's the one guy that is so constant in my life after he broke up with his girlfriend. I lost him once then.. I don't want to loose him ever again..

I just hope that his future wife likes me. Please like me.. I don't want anything to change.

Please be the most supporting wife ever..

Please.. Pretty please.. With sugar on top..

~ Ethics... LEARN IT!!!~

HANG UP!!!!

THAT'S WHAT YOU DO WHEN WE FIGHT!!! WHAT THE HELL!!!

I know I need anger management.. but you're not making it any better by hanging up the phone.

Words of advice.. If you wanna fight with me or with any other people.. Get it out there. Not by shutting me up and keeping quiet.

IT DOES NOT HELP ANYBODY!!!!

~ 2nd April Fools?? ~

After being in a relationship for quite sometime..

It feels so good to know that some guys are still asking about you from friends.

The best part is to know that they're dissapointed when they say you've got a bf.. hehehe..

I know.. I knowwwww... Feeling ultimately full of myself right now.

Bear with me k..

I'm stuck in Malacca and feeling so bored up to my skull and this is the only good

news to cheer me up today.

Thanx Hafeez.. You made my day even though I'm not sure whether its true or just one of your

stupid 2nd day April Fools..

~ Doodle ~

My blog had a make over as I had just learned how to change the template. Pathetic.. I know.. Before this too lazy to do anything and too stubborn to check it out.

I browsed a lot of template and I ended up with this heartsy template. Even though it kinda feels like its puke worthy but this reminds me of my childhood with Jasmin. I've always watch Jasmin doodle on her paper mindlessly and mind you she is no Picasso but she's creative in her own way. I still remember that she likes to make circle with different colours and I'd pick it up trying to think of what its about.. Kinda like abstract art..

I heart you Jasmin....

~ DisTanCe ~

* Listening to your voice is the second best thing for now since
holding you is out of the question *

~ Memories of 2 Wonderful Women.. ~

Gosh its been such a long time since I read this edit post. Sometimes it feels surreal..
I wrote this post a long time ago but as I had just read a post by Nuraina A Samad of Takziah to her friend's son who just passed then I decided to just post it and get it out of my list of posts.
The post is quite outdated.. Wish I could say the same for the pain though.

This year is quite the opposite of what I had in mind.. Since the year 2010 is in I thought it would be a joyous year for me, my family and B. But tragedy in life had followed. I've lost 2 most important woman in my life whom one I was suppose to have a future with and the other hold my past. I lost Aunty Asnah who is B's mum in December and my dearest grandmother in January. Losing Aunty is totally heart breaking as I didnt get to know her as well as I wanted to and I didn't get to visit her when she was in the hospital since I'm in Pangkor and December was a totally manic month since its the school holidays. Thank god I get to meet my grandma before she passes after Aunty's funeral and I'm happy that God had taken Atuk as she was suffering.

Looking back..
I met Aunty out of false pretences as B had tricked me by stopping at his house before going on our date. The first time he did that I felt like killing him. I mean.. Hello!! its scary ok..
My heart was beating like nobody's business and I felt like I'm gonna faint. So I was in the living room waiting for aunty to come down. I called my bestie and she told me not to panicked and just be myself and try to be casual.
So the moment came!! Suddenly I can see Aunty coming down the stairs wearing her 'baju kelawar' and I stood up so that I can greet her.

Following my bestie's advice.. which is being myself.. I automatically said in my most cheerful voice ( mind you which is quite high-pitched) " Hai Aunty!! " and she just smiled. Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... I suddenly realize.. Shittttttt.. Ade ke patut cakap Hai.. Cakap ar Asmekum ker.. Sopan r skit.. Dah la casual.. Cheery sangat lak tuh.... Huuuuuwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... Mesti kena strike one.. Giler sedey..

Anyway.. my mum always said that I shouldn't meet my boyfriends family as my mum actually are quite the conservative. But I'm really glad B had tricked me as I got to know her a little bit even if for a short span of time. Her passing hurts and I wish it didn't happen but I guess God knows whats best even if whats best hurts us.

As for looking back and thinking bout the memories of Atuk when I was little... Hahahaha.. Selalu kena sebat or memories of her screaming at me.. I feel sorry for her though as she got a little devil as her grandchild. Mana la orang tua tuh tak marah..

Dekat rumah Aulong, Atuk ade kolah besar which is kind of like a little swimming pool. So one fine day, my aunty's grandma came to our house and talked about mandi bunga since one of my uncle wasn't married yet at the time. I think I was about 7 years old at the time and for a 7 years old girl that sound like a fun thing to do. So I went out and gathered a lot of Atuk's flowers *dah ade point nak kena marah tue* and put it in the 'swimming pool'. Happily I was swimming and playing with the flowers.. Siap scrub diri dengan the flowers and then I heard it.. " Melissa.. Awat duk kat dalam bilik air tuh lama sangat.. Bunyi air nyer takde. Cepat -cepat.. Banyak lagi orang nak mandi nih" So I got out of the pool and gathered all the flowers and took my express shower so that Atuk will hear the sound of water splashing.

So when I'm done I opened up the door to peep whether she's waiting outside and I can see that the line is clear. Got out of the bathroom as fast as I can with flowers in my hand to throw it out before she sees it. Hmmmmmmmm... Yeah Right!!! Suddenly I saw her lurking behind the closet with a furious face. Oppppssssssssss.. and the rest is history. But the good news is that... Since I kind of contaminated the water, Atuk let me play in the pool again with a promise not to ever to that again. Hehehehe.. And I kept that promise.

Nights like this makes me miss her a lot. It doesn't help that I'm listening to Aizat's song Pergi. On a happy note I will always thank God for letting me be with her all this time and not forgeting the time I get to spend with her on her last few weeks before she passes. It was a sad day as both me and ngah2 was crying beside her bed whilst feeding her as I know deep in my heart that this will be the last time and that she'll be taken away from us soon. And He did..

Al-Fatihah

~ Recovering Mode ~

I AM SELFISH!!! SO WATZ UR PROBLEM!!!!

* dedicated to my dearest roomie... bwwwwuuuuueeeeeeekkkkkk*

I know you mean well.. but I'm in my psychotic stage.. huhuhu..
Thanx for trying to keep me sane even if I don't agree with what you have to say...
( kata tengah psychotic.. huhuhu)

~ Bruises.. ~

I hate it when you go away as I had so much fun this weekend.. Wishing that weekends are longer than 2 days.. I hate Sundays the most as I know that is when it ends.. Thats why its called the weekends right... URGHHHHHH..... HATE IT!! HATE IT!! HATE IT!!!

Can't wait for next weekend that I'd get to spend with B.. Even if our date is not the regular date that most couples have. Anything goes as long as I get to spend time with B even if getting a bruised knee is the end result.. not forgetting my sore arms and legs.. Thanks to your new love for paintball..

Re-Run SUX when Hormones Strikes..

Looking at the title it just feel like we're goin through the past over and over again. I suddenly feel very angry bout the ending of Sex & d City. I'm watching the re-run on HBO where she is still with Aiden and cheating on him with STUPID BIG. How Carrie marries Big instead of sweet sweet Aiden. Why can't she move on??? Why does she go back to Big in the end of the story. WHY??!!! URGGGHHHHHH!!! STRESS!! Suddenly I'm thinking that is not the happy ending that I want for Carrie. I want her with somebody new that is sweet like Aiden and as charming as Big. I know love is not logic but still.. Give those who is single to rely and hope on meeting a new guy instead of rewinding back to their past.

NO BEB!!! I'm not thinking bout my past.. Hahaha.. This have nothing to do with it. If it has.. Confirm you'll hear bout it straight away k.. Was just thinking.. how some people don't move on and its sad and pathetic. Guess they didnt get the closure that they needed. Too bad then..

Anyway... blame it on the hormones.. I guess I'm getting psychotic on something other than bout my life. Crazy you say.. Yuppp.. I know..

~ Grow UP DADDY!!!! ~

I hate my dad!!! yesssss.... i hate him right now.. Iknow hate is such a strong word.. But its all pent up anger that I'm feeling right now.

Just because he hates weddings... n now I can't even go to lynn's house earlier since he is so selfish. What's wrong if I do go earlier? Its not like I'm going there for a month or something.. Some more have the cheeks to tell people that he want's me to travel to German to stay with his friends.. You know and I know just how true that statement is.. Come on man... You're not the most down to earth and flexible father ok!!! So don't try to tell people how good or supporting you are... Coz face the facts... YOU'RE NOT!!!

Yeah yeah!!! Some of you might say.. That's what father's do.. Because they love you so much.. Does your father do that to you then? Does it mean that your father love you less? Come on.. Tell me.. How do I talk to him when he doesn't even listen and think rationally? What he wants is that I'll be around him all the time. Hello!!! Get a grip.. I won't be around you all the time so you've got to learn to let me go. I'm gonna get married and that phase is coming soon. I know you love me so much and I'm thankful that you do.. But please... please.. Try to be more understanding.. Its not like I'm going for a long time.. I'm going for 5 days tops..

~ Up and Down ~

Lets start with the bad news in my life right now..
Raya is just a few weeks away and I got a call from my brother saying that our house got robbed yet AGAIN.. Even though there is nothing much to take since the robber from the first round took almost everything.. I still hate it that somebody is going through all my private stuff. I haven't seen my room but I can picture it that they've left quite a mess.


I don't really care if they took my other jewelry but the first robbers took my precious locket. I haven't even wore it. I bought it at an antique shop when I was 11 and vow to only wear it on my wedding day. Its just a simple locket but it means a great deal to me. Hell.. I've been saving it for 14 years and my dream of wearing that locket is just gone with the wind. So on my wedding day I would only be wearing my boring ring... HUWAAAAAAA... Damn you robbers!!!!



On a happy note..
Since that incident.. I went back to Pangkor early to be with my family. It was fun breakfasting with them and this is the first year we had our puasa in Pangkor. Quite a different as I didn't get to roam around PARAM(Pasar Ramadhan) but instead I'm stuck in the kitchen cooking with mummy. Not saying that it's a bad thing but I want my freedom to go gugu gaga over all the food and buy my favourite cendol instead of trying to make one.. huhuhu.. Gosh I miss going to PARAM with Jasmin and our occasional cuci mata.. hehehe.. That was fun.. Anyway.. What a different route my life is taking me.. Its different yet it is fun.. But I do miss my occasional routine life. Guess a boring routine life is not meant for me then.


Another happy note is that I just celebrated my 1 year and 6 months anniversary... I know.. I know.. Kinda blowing it out of proportion since its only 1 and half year. As usual B would forget and I take it as one of his major flaws which I'm fine with.. ( I think..) But he'll make it up on his other good traits like giving me suprises on our last monthlyversary.


We went to the Melacca Acoustic Fender Festival and our friend's band was invited to play a gig there. I've been to the festival 3 years in a row and I feel like a groupie. Hehehe.... After having our dinner, the guys when our for a smoke but after an hour B didn't come back to the table and kept lepaking outside. Like HELLO!!! We came to this festival together and he ditches me.. Geram nyer!!! So I went outside and he was still smoking and I pinched me for leaving me inside for so long. He gave me his camera bag and said that he need to go to the bathroom.. "La pulak.. Duduk kat luar punya lama baru nak pegi toilet... Nih yang nak membebel nih..." By the time he got back, it was just nice that it was Sunburst's turn to take the stage. Since B wanted me to take a video of the band we went infront hiding behind the pillar so that we wont block other people's view. Intan was a nervous wreck because when she sang 'Lucky' with Aslam she didn't even smile and her face was so straight. It was so funny.. But she did a good job and can't wait for more performances by her and the band in the future.

Suddenly Aslam was inviting another person on stage. That's weird.. Who else is gonna be singing. The next thing I knew is that he was calling the guy who have been taking photos for them and when I turned to look at B he was smiling and blushing and was walking towards the stage.. OH MY GOD!!! B!!! Then Berg was standing next to me whistling as if innocence abis la kan.. and Intan was saying this is B's suprise for me.. OH MY GOD!!! The funny thing was that when B went on stage he was looking for the lyrics.. Sabar jer la.. hahahaha.. He sang Plain White T's song which is 1 2 3 4..

( going 2 be in my pukey moment now.. )
B looked so cute and the best thing is that he actually sang it for me because he didn't really looked at the audience much.. Especially when B is singing the chorus.. He kept looking at me and I feel like going up on stage and just hugged him really tight.. Huwaaaaa.. I could feel that my face was really hot since I was blushing so badly and I couldn't stop smiling..

By the time, B came down I smack him because he kept it from me.. I know.. I know.. It was supposed to be a suprise but still I could have gotten a heart attack for being too happy.. hehehe
The reason why he ditch me that night is because he was so nervous and even more nervous since he didn't memorize the whole lyric. Kesian B kena marah.. oooppppssssss.. sorry B.. And it turns out that he came to Melacca early because he thought there was going to be a sound check but it turns out that its been cancelled to the next day. Dah ar kesian kat B since he can't do the sound check the next day since I was around. And the other day he even lied to me saying that he was sleeping the whole night padahal tengah jamming... Sabar jer r.. Tipu....
Thanks so much to all who participated towards giving me a suprise.. Yes!! I loved the suprise.. It was totally out of this world..

~ SuPrise NO MORE!!! ~

Thank god for technology.. i get to 'meet' my dearest gals.. The Bev. Hills girls get together.. Eventhough it was just a conference for about an hour but it was more than I can ask for since we hardly see each other thanks to our priorities and the coordinates...

I was chatting with Jasmin earlier before the conference and we were talking bout her wedding preparations. I still can't believe it that she of all people is getting married. I mean.. It feels just like yesterday that we were still having crushes and getting crushed by all those stupid jerks.. But our love for the male species never changed.. We try and try and now... Alhamdulillah.. We are happy with our men.. Jas and Kin is engaged.. I'm in a happy relationship with B.. So all those heart breaks and tears was all worthwhile for us to get to this point of life. Yeay for us!!!!!

Anyway.. We started asking each other when we can meet up.. dan tanpa segan silu Jas wanted us to organize her hen nyte.. Eeeeeeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.. tak malu.... mintak.. Ko nih mmg tau.. aku dah plan dah nk buat SUPRISE HEN NYTE.. So the suprise part is gone... Hello!!! Of course there will be a hen nyte for you my dear.. Its not everyday that my bestfriend gonna be married. Wedding have been our favourite topic since forever. Berangan tak sudah.. hehehehe..

Can't wait to be 'drunk' drinking our mocktails and talking and laughing all nyte long til our voice is gone. Confirm akan ade hujan coz ade Jas.. ( if you get what i mean) hahahaha...
Muahsssssssssssssssssss... Can't wait to meet you gals....

~ IroNiC ~

There was this annoying guest who disturbs all of the Anjungan girls.. Because he's a guest we have to be polite and run away from him politely also. But its a big mistake when you would want to be chicky with my dad asking bout his daughter.. BIG MISTAKE BUCKO!!!

Annoying guest: Uncle.. Since your daughter is going back to Malacca, I can give her a ride. I'm

going back to Muar, its on the way.

Babah : (In a punching mode and he could feel his temperature rising. But since he's a guest punching is not the way to handle things.)If you want to get it from her fiance then try it.

Annoying guest : Fiance?? She's engaged already??

Babah : Yes she is. Her fiance is from Ampang.

Hahahaha.. Out of all the places in the world Babah could have picked, he picked Ampang. Ampang is where B is living. Guess it is sort of a hidden prayer then that I'll marry an Ampang boy eventhough Babah doesn't know that. Ironic huh?? Wouldn't it be funny if I tell Babah this story again. But in order to tell him this ironic story... I hope that my wish do come true and I do marry an Ampang boy. Hehehe...

Oh ya!!!!!!!!! Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

A guest just asked whether a wedding can be held at the resort... Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... I want my wedding to be the first one. I've got the whole thing all planned out in my head. Wonder when that will be???!!! but stillll... My wedding first!!!!

Dont freak out B.... Muahssssssssssss....

~ OBSESSED!!! ~

I'm seriously am OBSESSED!!! I can't help myself but to adore this couple...

I've been watching Khalil & Azua wedding montage by CST PRODUCTION. Can't count how

many times but I know its A LOT.

Sorry people.. I don't know how to upload it.. Quite the IT illiterate..hehe..

Anywaaaaaaayyyysssss...

It's one of the best montage since the couple is so sporting and they were just being themselves.

Even the song that they pick just shows how fun loving they are.

I'm not obsessed about wedding right now.. I 'm obsessed bout being a couple just like them..

Hmmmmmm.. wonder what kind of couple do me and B make?

~ To All The Ants In MY House~

Especially the big black one... I don't mind if we're sharing a space... I mean.. I did mind at first

but since you guys had made your own community.. I welcome you with open arms...

But please...

We share a space.. You're freaking small.. So this whole house is like the whole of Melacca

therefore there is

more than enough space for you to roam around..

So why?? I ask you why my dearest ant friend... Why do you need to invade my privacy?

Why do you feel the need to take that I'm your Everest??? Why do you need to conquer me?

That doesn't mean that you can climb on me and make it as if I'm like a

fortress coz I'm not...

GET IT!!! I'M NOT!!!!!