~IN MY I HATE U MODE!!!!!~

I HATE U!!! Why out of all the days you pick today to have problems with me. I need you. I want you to need me too. Don't you need me? I NEED YOU!!! I FREAKING NEED YOU!!! You know that you are the only one. I can't replace you!!! There is no one other than you and like you. You've been with me the longest and supposedly understand me more. You hold all my secrets and my memories. This sucks... YOU SUCKS!!!

UUUURRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Baby... I love you but I have to leave you... I guess its over between us.. So sorry.. Sammy.. Time for me to move on and get a new phone... Hmmmmmm... What might it be this time.... Nokia? Sony Ericson? LG? Blackberry? HTC? I-Phone? A whole new world to discover...

~Saodah... Saodah....~

Some people are just born to be envious of others. Kill your green eyed monster will you!!! Why can't one be happy with what they have or whatever they chose. They are the one who made that lifetime decisions. So be a man (or woman) and face the music. Learning from the past is part of life. It's good that you want to share your experience. But can YOU please not be bitter and generalize the whole male species as a problem. Maybe YOU are the problem.

YOU is dedicated to a girl named Saodah (so freaking mad at her that even her alias name is so like that. No offence to all the Saodah in the world.) She just broke up with her long time boyfriend of 5 years and in the past year alone this has been the third break up. Since this is her hat trick, I guess this is would be the final break up(I hope....). All is well in her department because all of her friends are rooting for her new well improve life. We've supported her by making her busy with all the activities and always being there for her but in the end she bite us in the ass. Just because you are single why would you want to influence other people to be like you. Are you looking out for our best interest or are you looking for company to go guy hunting with you. Our days are over for those crap because we are contently happy and fulfilled with our catch. So don't be a b**** and try to ruin our blissful life by poisoning our minds with what jerks guys could be. Your ex-boyfriend is a jerk. That is why he is called an EX. Get it!!!!! So move on and find other single girlfriends for you to go guy hunting with. Just because your love life sucks and you hate guys at the moment, don't freaking disturb and ruin what I have.

GUYS... I know you would be happy to know this. I'm partly on your side on this matter. I know that you can be a jerks. But I can't generalize the whole male species and say that all of you are jerks. That would be saying that all the great guys in my life are jerks. I SO LOVE the male species and don't hate me for it. Hehehehe.... Individualism is key therefore the problem comes from individuals and how they decide with their life and not based on their gender.

On a happy note though.... Yesterday I just celebrated my first anniversary with Hed. I'm so in love.... So don't you dare rain on my parade!!!

B**** Fit!!!!

As you can see from the title that's what i've been having for the past month. Being a Cancer it makes it worst coz as you know.. CANCER have a tendency of having a roller coaster of emotions. What is wrong with me??!!! I hate being like this... I'm better than this.. I'm suppose to be this bubbly girl whom love life as it is and she have no regrets nor will she have the green eyed monster..

But for the past month that's what I've been feeling. I hate this feeling. This is so not me. I don't care what I have and what I don't have or what they're doing or what I'm doing. It usually doesn't matter to me coz I live in the present. Having the green eyed monster therefore I'm regretting what I have. huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... get this out of my system... I miss the old me. The happy me.. The crazy me.. Please please please... I want ME back!!!

To whomever that have to deal with me.. Bear with me please... muahsssssssss... love you...