~ OVER??!!! ~

It's over... It's all over... I can't believe it that after all that we've been through it just ended like that. The storyline is interesting with all the reasonable dramas but the ending ended with just a simple thud. What a simple ending. If this story is made into a movie in Bollywood, the whole theater will be burn down for the unhappy ending. Everybody crave for a happy ending. Why wouldn't we? We deserve all the happiness in the world and the happily ever after. There was a sticker in facebook


The hell with B as my prince charming or any other guys at this point. Guess he will be my rebound guy. I need a rebound guy.. This is freaking hard. I've been made a princess by him and I can't stop being a Princess NOW!!! NO WAY!!! Guess I am lucky to have met a rebound guy. I don't care!!! Why do I need to have any morals since it burnt along with the relationship.

So I went on a date with this guy @ Is (he's my senior at TLDM high school though it is not his real name). Anyway... after the first date we went on a few more dates in the same week and I truly enjoyed myself as all my worries and loneliness dissolve. Sorry... but this is what I need to move on.

We were in front of my apartment and were to bid goodnight after a wonderful, romantic date. A squeeze of my hand is enough to make me blush and slowly without warning he was leaning towards me.His face was coming closer to mine and suddenly I could see his this and that's on his face (I don't say it out loud because I'm scared that I'll be getting it myself.. huhu... quite superstitious) I feel like I'm in a movie where everything became slow motion as to show the magic of the first kiss. MAGIC!!! Are you kidding me!!!

At that moment, in my head I just wanted to have B next to me in the car instead. I was wishing so hard that spontaneously I just cried my hearts out and he was taken aback. I don't want HIM!!! I want B!!! B!!! That's my wish.. I want B!!! My heart is broken and the feeling is so real and for once my wish came true because I found myself on my bed with big fat tears rolling down my cheeks. Huh??!!!! What the hell??!!

I woke up with goosebumps all over my body. My eyes choked up with wild tears and I can't believe that I was crying for real. It turns out that I had it all in my head to make it feel so real. It was the nightmare of ALL nightmare. PHHHHEEEEEWWWWWW....

~ Rice Krispies Treats???~

QUESTION: What the hell is that brown blob?
ANSWER: That is what will happen if you use imitation marshmallow to make your rice krispies treats... It becomes RICE SHITTY TREATS!!!!

Instead of turning to a thick white fluid, it turned brown instead. "Aikkkkk... Apsal brown lak.. Bukan ke dalam recipe putih ker?! " So our conclusion is that the marshmallow is not original. What else? It was the first step.. Takkan r dh salah kan... We're not that bad in the kitchen okay... Hmmmmmm... What to do.. At least it was a fun experiment.. hehe.. Anyway.. Nice try sayang..

~ My Lunch Suprise...~

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....
huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......
huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......

Words just can't decribe my feelings... I can just cried out huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....
What's wrong you ask? WHAT'S WRONG??!!!

Yesterday I had to endure his special pheromone... So help me god!! And for today's special lunch treat.. I had to endure his balding head. Yeap!! He's bald!! I know he've got to do it since there's a problem with his scalp and supposedly I prepare myself for these. But huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... I wish it didn't happen.

The oh so famous quote is that one can't judge a book by its cover. But looks is important in a relationship. I'm a visual woman... therefore what one looks like is partly important. I'm not going to depend on your looks only.. but I'm only human therefore shallow as I am.. I want my B to have a full head of hair.

Hmmmmmmmm.. I'll be counting the days til B get his old looks back. I'll be waiting in anticipation. Thank goodness hair do grow. I can't bear if this is his permanent looks. For now.. a bald head is what I have.

~ My Very Own Pepe Le Pew ~

Today was to be a wonderful Sunday where I'd spent time with B just walking around MP and DP. If we're lucky and right on time we might catch a movie. When he picked me up I could just feel my face lights up just seeing him... But that was all before I stepped into the car...

The moment I stepped into the car my smile faded as my nose were scrunching up trying to determine something. The thing is that.... I have a problem with my nose where I can't really smell unless the stinct wreak of bad odour. OH MY GOD!!! Why the hell does this car wreak like a bad egg. Seriously!! I'm not kidding!! It smell of a bad egg.. The next thing I knew is that I was scruyying fast reaching for the power window switch trying to catch my breath. AIR!! I NEED AIR!!! FRESH AIR!! PLEASE!!!!

I turned to B and the worst thing of all.. He just sat there smiling all the way without any feeling of remorse. How could he not warn me!!! Now all my happy thoughts was gone and all I could feel was rage.. SERIOUS RAGE!!! I feel like strangling his neck to put that cheeky smile of his face. He was laughing so hard that suddenly I heard it.. The deadly smell with a sound. Now both of us was laughing at the stupid sound and I don't have to even tell you bout the smell rite..

I wanted to open the window the whole way to town though the unfortunate thing for me is that it was raining cats and dogs. So someway somehow since I love him so much I have to brace it with my head up high and my nose blocked. Wonder what he ate that made him a farting machine. So we didn't go to the movies as we tried to stay clear from other people to spare them from the misery. But it was a wonderful Sunday no less. Hehehe...
Even if god gave me a skunk... Guess I have to live with it. As long as my skunk loves and adores me and can make me happy.. I'd risk it. Anyway.. Who say love is easy....

~IN MY I HATE U MODE!!!!!~

I HATE U!!! Why out of all the days you pick today to have problems with me. I need you. I want you to need me too. Don't you need me? I NEED YOU!!! I FREAKING NEED YOU!!! You know that you are the only one. I can't replace you!!! There is no one other than you and like you. You've been with me the longest and supposedly understand me more. You hold all my secrets and my memories. This sucks... YOU SUCKS!!!

UUUURRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Baby... I love you but I have to leave you... I guess its over between us.. So sorry.. Sammy.. Time for me to move on and get a new phone... Hmmmmmm... What might it be this time.... Nokia? Sony Ericson? LG? Blackberry? HTC? I-Phone? A whole new world to discover...

~Saodah... Saodah....~

Some people are just born to be envious of others. Kill your green eyed monster will you!!! Why can't one be happy with what they have or whatever they chose. They are the one who made that lifetime decisions. So be a man (or woman) and face the music. Learning from the past is part of life. It's good that you want to share your experience. But can YOU please not be bitter and generalize the whole male species as a problem. Maybe YOU are the problem.

YOU is dedicated to a girl named Saodah (so freaking mad at her that even her alias name is so like that. No offence to all the Saodah in the world.) She just broke up with her long time boyfriend of 5 years and in the past year alone this has been the third break up. Since this is her hat trick, I guess this is would be the final break up(I hope....). All is well in her department because all of her friends are rooting for her new well improve life. We've supported her by making her busy with all the activities and always being there for her but in the end she bite us in the ass. Just because you are single why would you want to influence other people to be like you. Are you looking out for our best interest or are you looking for company to go guy hunting with you. Our days are over for those crap because we are contently happy and fulfilled with our catch. So don't be a b**** and try to ruin our blissful life by poisoning our minds with what jerks guys could be. Your ex-boyfriend is a jerk. That is why he is called an EX. Get it!!!!! So move on and find other single girlfriends for you to go guy hunting with. Just because your love life sucks and you hate guys at the moment, don't freaking disturb and ruin what I have.

GUYS... I know you would be happy to know this. I'm partly on your side on this matter. I know that you can be a jerks. But I can't generalize the whole male species and say that all of you are jerks. That would be saying that all the great guys in my life are jerks. I SO LOVE the male species and don't hate me for it. Hehehehe.... Individualism is key therefore the problem comes from individuals and how they decide with their life and not based on their gender.

On a happy note though.... Yesterday I just celebrated my first anniversary with Hed. I'm so in love.... So don't you dare rain on my parade!!!

B**** Fit!!!!

As you can see from the title that's what i've been having for the past month. Being a Cancer it makes it worst coz as you know.. CANCER have a tendency of having a roller coaster of emotions. What is wrong with me??!!! I hate being like this... I'm better than this.. I'm suppose to be this bubbly girl whom love life as it is and she have no regrets nor will she have the green eyed monster..

But for the past month that's what I've been feeling. I hate this feeling. This is so not me. I don't care what I have and what I don't have or what they're doing or what I'm doing. It usually doesn't matter to me coz I live in the present. Having the green eyed monster therefore I'm regretting what I have. huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... get this out of my system... I miss the old me. The happy me.. The crazy me.. Please please please... I want ME back!!!

To whomever that have to deal with me.. Bear with me please... muahsssssssss... love you...